Old dog is approaching the end

Earlier this spring I estimated that my dog had until a bit after her 16th birthday in September.   A few weeks ago I downgraded it to 3 months.  On Friday when I got home from work to find that she could barely stand and kept tipping over I shortened her life expectancy again to Monday when I could take her to the vet for one last appointment.  She was doing better the rest of the weekend, walking around and jumping at the leash this morning, but if she doesn’t start eating heartily again then she’s not going to live another several months as hoped.  I know she is old and has lived a happy long life and a peaceful death in my arms will be my final responsibility as owner, but knowing all that doesn’t stop me from tearing up just thinking about it, nor will it stop me from sobbing uncontrollably on the way to the vet, at the vet, and on the way home from the vet.  We need to take some family portraits with Kalayna tomorrow after I get home from work, just in case.

May 3, 2009. Dog, Words.


  1. amylee replied:

    man amy – i cant even imagine! how are you doing? any news?

  2. You know Who replied:

    I’m tearing up too, I well remember how that went with Lassa, my first dog.
    It sounds like she keeps recovering tho.
    Yes, to celebrate all the waggings and joy she gave you, and enjoy what is left.
    Thinking of you,
    Love, Mom

  3. You know Who replied:

    Also, she made a huge difference in a couple of my classrooms (“I wasn’t going to come to school today, but I remembered you were bringing the dog.”) and also turned one antagonistic girl 10th grader totally around to cooperative, when she and I and Kalayna were the only ones in class one day and we walked Kalayna. Swalked and talked to her, and then me, and was a different student for me forever after.

  4. Sarah replied:

    Amy, I’m sorry about Kalayna. I know how much you love her. I have several fond memories of your small dog. These fond memories include, but are not limited to: Waking you up in the middle of the afternoon and finding you asleep with Kalayna–both of you looking so comfortable. Learning about the same time that some dogs have nervous habits, like licking sheets threadbare. And sometimes dogs, when they get shut in a really messy room, poop and pee inside. All you can do about that is sigh and explain again that dogs are supposed to do that outside. Also, driving across the country with her. I remember how worried about her you were after the car accident and how well you took care of her. I know she loves you a lot, you have been a good friend to her.

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